I really want to blame you for the way I’ve been feeling. I want you to think its all your fault and you did this to me. But deep down I know it’s not you. I allowed the things you did and do get to me. I let them phase me in a much more hurtful way than I ever imagined. It is not your fault , it is mine. I’m too the point where I can’t stand you at all and yet I still like you. You can say or do the most horrible thing and I will see passed it and still want you. At this point, I am praying that I will find someone new because that is truly the only way I will be completely done with you. And I know what we’re doing isn’t helping at all , but I can’t get myself to come to my senses and say no. I can never tell you no. I am still blinded by you and waiting patiently for someone to help me see the way out.